Rob: k…I hav eto ask you….you say you didn’t want to do RPGs with us, but wnated to spend more time with us as friends. I spent the first few months including you in email requests for nights such as movie nights, hang out nights, or random thing nights, and received no responses to them. I gave up on inviting you out to anything because of it, hoping I would hear from you in some way eventually. I’m not sure, but I think it’s been near about 9 months since we’ve even spoke. I have no idea why. Do you? It just seemed strange to me, and I’m bothered by it, so I’m asking about it.
A very good question (and one I’ve been trying, unsuccessfully, to answer for years). The same has happened between myself and many other people. Maybe it’s that we never did anything other than RP, and I have trouble relating to you, J, and the rest on any other level.
Rob: Actually, you spent the night at my house, we talked about programming, we watched Farscape, we talked about music, and you did some artwork for me. I felt it was the start of a good friendship, and wasn’t bothered when you said you would not like to continue RPing since you’d keep in touch other ways…and I tried to keep you involved, but all attempts were rejected…and I don’t know if there is a reason…like I pissed you off, or you just right out don’t like me, or something else…
There’s been many casualties as a result of my attempts to hold a more “serious” life (whatever that might be, but likely involving school & work), friendships included. Oh hell no, you certainly did /not/ piss me off. You’re quite a jolly fun person to be around, Rob. Inspiring at times. The same can be said for a damn large quantity of people, many of whome I havn’t seen for longer.. I’ve been slipping into a downward spiral of not-keeping-up with them. Having a girlfriend has significantly affected the time I have available.. as has work. *sigh* I’d like to do something. Tell me, Rob. Is there some non-RP, non-drinking fun event that you & people are doing in the near future? I should really just stop fretting about the time missed. It causes me more problems than solutions.
Rob: I think the time has passed, but curiousity got the better of me and I had to ask. I really don’t know anything about you anymore, and from the sounds of it your are as busy/busier than I am…so it is unlikely we could get to know each other again. As for events..no idea….for the past few months I haven’t had much time to do much than hang out just Jay and I a few times a month.
(One of the big reasons I didn’t respond to so many of those emails is the beer-centricness of J’s parties (at least, I presumed))
Rob: I invited you personally over for more Farscape viewing, have offered to hook you up with Therion, the band that when you heard you told me you wanted to have all I had on them, as well as a few party type things…
Yes, you did. The irrational: “I can’t show my face at this! Because I didn’t at the last event!” Which is a stupid unending sort of reasoning, to be sure. But highly guilt-driven.
Rob: I had to ask is all. I don’t expect an apology or to make you feel guilty. As I said, curiousity finally beat at the anger I had over it to the point where I just had to ask.
I don’t think you intend to make me feel guilty. However, I do, and have for almost a year. An apology? You deserve one. I don’t think I can say “It won’t happen again” right now. Against my anti-spoiler-judgement. I watched the Farscape miniseries. In large part, because I wanted to re-find you and J through it. (Because, in large part, that’s what I knew you through.) My lack of historical understanding of the events in the Farscape universe was a symbolic little packaged of my relations to you, and how distant and full of holes they had grown. codepoetica: *sigh* I’m sorry Rob, for treating you like dirt.
Rob: It’s ok.
Is it?
Rob: I’m not upset, worried, or bothered about it. All of those feelings stopped a long while ago. I asked out of curiorsity.
I still am.
Rob: Not sure what to say now.
*insert-awkward-silence-here*
Rob: ok..logging off now…all the best man. Cheers.
Goodbye, Rob. I hope to see you again sometime.
Rob: I really can’t say man. I’m really way too busy, and have no idea if we we speak again past today. As I said…just curious…wasn’t bitching, or trying to mend…just asking for the sake of knowing. Peace of mind and all that jazz. Whatever happens, truely, all the best to you and yours. Night.
Session Close (Rob): Wed Feb 23 21:16:51 2005